How does it feel
To sleep in pain
When all your efforts
Have gone in vain
Lying in the darkness
Listening to the rain
Trying to figure out
How to live with this pain
What has gone wrong
Why is this suffering
Destined for poor li’l o’ me !!
Not even gifted with a sound sleep
Having lost the will to laugh or weep
Life has become a sea of pain
And every moment agony
At this time
I must endure again, again!
It is a curse to have to be
And every moment agony
And every longing fixed on death
Why can’t I have a sound sleep
Like that of a new born baby ?
I lay on my bed
Trembling and shivering
Trying to distract myself
From the pain
I keep fighting for every breath
Unable to do anything at a stretch!
Eyes burn…
Hands shiver… Body aches…
Feels like I break a bone
Whenever I turn (On my bed)
Here comes the worst part
The medicines
Tastes even worse than poison
My veins have gone numb
Due to the needles
Poked cruelly
Every time
By the doctor
If death is better than suffering
Then why cannot I die. .
I want to die. . . now. . .
This very moment, this very instant. .
Can’t handle this pain any more
This weakness
This dependency on everyone
It is killing me every second
Burning me from within
Oh pain! Please go away !
Go away!
And come back never again!
Never again !
Never again !!
Never again !!!
